♥~♥ AT GOAL - YEAH ♥~♥

Hi

Well today is the day i actually made my Weight Watchers goal weight - just under - phew lol.

I now weigh 67.6 KG yep you read it, just amazing. It is not the fact of reaching goal, i knew i would get there as i got close, just surreal still. I still am amazed i right down 76 instead of 67 as it just is not something easy to fathom. Having been in triple digits for years and before that in the nineties i just dont beleive it myself lol. Hubby now calls me skinny bitch lol. I told him when i started i would be happy to get to 75 BUT when i got to there i thought i can do this, just keep going and i can feel what it is like to be "Normal". I hate saying that but it is just weird.

I go to the shops and shop in "normal" shops, sometimes i still feel unworthy which is just bizzare. People there dont know where i have come from or what i weighed and it doesnt really matter. Just matters that i am smaller and healthier now.

I am blown away by comments but i know that will pass and life will go on. I just have to deal with maintenance and see how that goes. I have a personal goal to get 65kg which will make it 50% of my body weight gone but if i dont it doesnt matter. Just would be nice, i have still have wobbly bits lol. I am going to try and maintain for 3-4 weeks and go from there. I decided to chill and enjoy the school hols and not stress if i dont go to the gym for the two weeks, enjoy time with the kids then get back into routine.

I am going to Pink on Saturday with 3 girlfriends and we are going all out and staying in town. So it will be a bad weekend. I havent been bad for over a year lol. I am not going to go crazy and undo all my hard work but i am going to have a few drinks, go to a restaurant for tea and just enjoy myself. There is a gym, sauna, spa and lap pool at the hotel so we are going use that during the day and party at night. CANT WAIT. It was a birthday present from hubby but what an "At Goal" reward too.

I hope i can inspire others cause i am blown away myself. I have never tried to really loose this weight before and my head was just in the right space. It shows it can be done.

I will post an 'At Goal' picture soon.

Feelings

Hi

Well i haven't been blogging as usual, though i said i would start again. Just soo busy these days.

Son was sick, now daughter sick and it is the last day of the school term. I was hoping to do my last chance work out at the gym lol and hit the shops, i miss that adrenalin. Oh well i am going to try and go tonight and or tomorrow morning for the 8.30am combat class. Then will take a break during the holidays and chill. See how that goes.

I have 900 grams to get to my Weight Watchers goal weight and it just seems surreal still, i go to the shops and try size 12 and 14 clothes and they fit but it still is hard to believe i weigh so little and i am so much fitter and love the gym lol. I bought a size 12 denim skirt yesterday for summer lol. Not sure if it is too short so i am pondering but it was on sale lol. Might blog a picture of that lol.

I have been working hard the days i have been to the gym even did some jogging on the tready and a few 30 minute stints on the cross trainer and i used to hate that machine lol But i really think it helps with the losses and just thought i would shake things up, something different.

I have been soo positive and happy but feeling a bit overwhelmed when people comment about my stats. I don't know why lately i get the feeling people don't believe my losses, sometimes i dont beleive it. But i know i have been working hard at the gym and they are what they are. But it is no biggie as i am happy, healthier and now that is a fact.

I pondered joining a WW meeting for my last 7kg then i thought why i haven't been going all this time and have been successful and i don't need to get LTM as i don't really like the thought of meetings. Though sometimes i wished i did go to meetings from the start but i HATE crowds have panic attacks - that are actually getting better but mainly just didn't join for that reason alone. I would have liked to have gone and shared this journey and also be helped and help others in hindsight if i could stand the crowds of course lol but i just love the Weight Watchers boards and get lots of support there so i thought i would just carry on as i was.

I THINK it has something to do with getting so much attention being so close to goal lol. I am happy and so i should be but like i said maybe just feeling overwhelmed. Not use to soo much attention. I bought a new tighter shirt for the gym as mine are all too big and get caught in my arms when i try and punch in combat class or lift the weights in pump lol and thought i should splurge. Mind you i found a pretty one at good old Best and Less lol. Well i was in the change room at the gym and one lady that i talk to said OMG look at you - you look awesome. That new shirt shows off your great figure lol. Then she went and told a few ladies in the class and they all came out to look. I was flattered just embarrassed so maybe it takes a bit of getting use to and that will blow over lol. The girls at my gym from day one have been soo supportive, helpful and proud of my efforts. I cant praise them enough both staff and members.

Well like i said i have been working hard this week and will see what the scales reveal Monday.

Wish me luck.